Sweet Disposition

Someday.. I’ll know, why I wasn’t meant for you.

Kagabi sobrang ewan my feelings, sobrang bugbog ako sa selos. Aligaga na nga ‘ko ee, alam mo yun.. 11 pictures lang yun pero naging 1oo para saken dahil paulit-ulit kong tinitignan. FML talaga. Ayos naman mood ko kahapon, as in.. hanggang sa nag-Facebook ako at yuuuuuuuun, most recent pa. Sore eyes. Bagong bagong upload, iyak tawa nalang ako. Hindi ko talaga alam ba’t bigla nanaman akong sinumpong ng ganito, naalala ko last year naman hindi ha.??Oo, hindi talaga. Uhm, nung mismong araw lang.. pe-ro hindiii yung ganito noh, nyeta. Sinimulan yung August ko, don’t tell me isang buwan ganito.?Pakyu ka.

Nagyoyosi ako, chain smoker pa.. sa panaginip ko kanina. Ang malupet pa nun ka-jamming ko pa erpats ko. Pero sa panaginip ko newbhie pa lang ako kase pina-practice ko pa daw ang tamang pagbuga. Yung sexy na buga, sexy na hithit, sexy na paghawak. Ang high ko sa panaginip ko.

The first movie that I’d ever watched alone on Cinema and guess what, I really enjoyed the every bits of it. Angelina Jolie will always be Angelina Jolie, she’s still the one heck of an amazing sexy hot actress. For me, this film is a solid A+, ‘twas a joyride.. I am completely blown over. I almost got a heart attack, maybe because I’m not really fond of watching action filled movies that’s why it always freaks hella me out whenever they’ve got to assassinate one another. I’m telling you, this movie is insanely awesome.. the acting, the action, the story. At first, you will get confused whether she really is a spy or not but in the latter part of the movie, you will see unexpected happenings and all the twists and turns of it. Like what I’ve said, it’s awesome awesome awesome awesome AWESOME. *pout*

P.S. I really want to watch Inception. I wanna get mindfucked. Seriously.

I went to the Mall’s CR to retouch and pee, when I entered this cubicle I saw this disgusting ungirly thingy that really got me irritated. I just don’t understand why some people can’t dispose of their used sanitary napkins properly. It’s really disgrossting plus it really stinks too. *spit up* It keeps me wondering if their mothers taught them how to, if that they are just plain lazy to do so or they simply don’t care at all but it’s really YUCKiEE. You know,the feeling of seeing a bloody piece of absorbent pad in all of it’s glory is disturbing and in my part, saddening,disgrossting,sickening and name-it-all-dirty stuff. Anyway, here.. just a piece of advice; clean up after yourselves, GiRLS. :)

Okay.. I’m not going to try and sound deep and all, I just had this thought that most of the arguments are just a chance to say what you really think of a person.?I mean, say you’re really good friends.. like really close with someone and then something unexpected would happen causing you to get into an argument with each other. I’m not saying it has happened recently, but it has happened before not only to me but I’ve seen it happen. You’d tell secrets, things that you’re not comfortable with telling others to one person who you’d call your best friend, then they’d use that as ammunition against you in an argument. Then after it’s all over and the apologies are said, it takes you such a long time to get close with that friend again after you think about what they said, and it causes you to wonder -“Did they really mean what they said.? Or were they just saying it to make their point and try and get your attention and etc.?” Well anyway, just a little thought. Good Night. :)

Friend 1: Bus nalang tayo para isang sakay nalang, S.O lang tayo sa MRT niyan ee.

While waiting for the bus.

10 mins. No bus to Cavite.

20 mins. No bus to Cavite.

35 mins. Still no bus to Cavite.

Friend 2: Sabi sainyo MRT nalang tayo ee, nakakapagod maghintay sa wala. Ang daming dumadating puro mga hindi mo naman kailangan. Yung hinahanap mo laging wala. P*ta.

Kami: *what-the-fuck look*

Tapos may biglang dumaan na mag-jowa, halos magkayakap na.

Friend 2: Tang-*na. Gusto ko na magka-syota ulit. Nakaka-miss may kayakap.

Ako: Sus, kayakap lang pala ee. Unan hindi syota, wala ka pang iyak.

Sila: *fuck-the-what look*

Kanina, ewan ko bigla ako napaisip sa nasabi sa’kin kahit alam ko naman na joke lang yun.. pero, sumampal sakin ee.

Sino ba talaga ang nang-iwan.?

Kung ikaw,

-Bakit.?

Ano bang kulang ko.?anong mali.?O sobra na.?Bakit.?

At kung ako,

-Bakit.?

Hindi ko naman ‘to gusto ee, kailangan ko. Para ako naman, sarili ‘ko naman. Para sa mga taong nagpapahalaga naman sakin, naaawa, natatangahan at iba pa.

Nang-iwan at iniwanan. Sobrang layo ng deperensya, ano ang mas masakit.?